"Sigh, It's bad," thats what he said. As simple as that. And he's right. I know it. But I've been surrounded by it all my life. I've experienced it daily. I've ventured straight to the edge, just to see how far I could go. "How far down is that drop?" I've wondered. 
It would be no surprise to find myself down that pit in a few years. In fact many joke about it and I don't think they'd find it surprising either. Its bad. But I'm used to the abuse. It doesn't hurt as bad anymore, in fact deep down I've always loved it. It's been just recently where it started to strike up some unsettling emotions and feelings. But now that that's behind me....
I CAN SEE WHERE I AM GOING...


i want to do it all over again, but this time a little differently. I hope he knows that...


xoxoxo,
steph


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